Da Journal

Tired

2008-07-08T15:33:43Z

Leah and I stayed up way to late last night. I had to get up earlier than normal this morning to give the neighbor a ride to PT. I was trying my best not to fall asleep waiting for my PT time. I had a meeting with the family advocacy lady yesterday. She wanted to talk about my speeding with Ethen in the car. Since I was going over 20 over with a child in the car it is child endangerment and the post has to do a hearing about weather or not they need to intervien on the childes behalf. She laughed about it that they had to go through all this over a speeding ticket so it should turn out fine I will find out this afternoon.

Sale

2008-07-06T00:40:38Z

wow we actually made money with the yard sale. We went and got penny a little kennel so she can sleep in the house instead of the garage. I met our new neighbor he seems nice and their daughters arrived the kids all seem to get along so far its nice. A four day weekend another two days to go what am I going to do with myself???

We are heading over to our neighbors for a BBQ going to drink beer and play games should be fun.

New Neighbors

2008-07-05T00:22:17Z

We have some new neighbors saw the wife unloading groceries. We sent the kids over to say hi and eventually made it over ourselves. She is nice and has three kids. The one we met is a 3 year old boy and our kids all got along he played at our house for hours. She also has two daughters that fly in tomorrow they should get along well the the neighbor girls. I havn't met her husband yet she said he was at the gym he should be in the same battalion as me but I can't say for sure.

We spent the whole day cleaning the Garage Leah wants to have a Garage sale booo I hate them and it is going to rain all weekend. I am so tired from moving all the stuff in the Garage.

brr

2008-06-28T04:40:07Z

and leahs hands are cold

so ya

2008-06-28T04:39:35Z

and stuff.
another day onother dollar as they say. I have today off but I'm making money ha no matter how much or little I work I get paid. Well then should I work at all? lol ya that is pretty much what happens in the army work as hard as possable to not work at all. So what are we doing tomorrow sitting and bullshitting. yup that is life. well I've been stupid lately so got so drunk I thought I was going to die the other day got caught speeding on post the other day you know that is verry bad yup you woldn't belive what they can do to you for speeding take your driving on post privalge away take your pay for a few months reduce you in rank make you do extra duity for over a month.

well I would type some more but the bbc is too damn good ttyl well maby in a few months

At Work

2008-03-18T04:52:11Z

ya so I'm here at work the last word is we will be at work for upto 5 day yes at work sleep eat and all for 5 days well i guess I had better figure out ware to sleep huh.

Still alive

2008-03-06T01:23:51Z

I am still alive I know that I havnt been posting but that is because I havnt been on the computer much. I built this new computer and well their have been many many complications. Needless to say I have been frustrated and just stoped using any computer at all. I sit at a computer at work now so i may actualy post something interesting. Not that much of interest happens in my life.

Funny

2007-10-28T06:21:39Z

This is an awesome alarm system for messin with people I am going to get one to fuck with my kids it will be so awesome.
http://www.thinkgeek.com/geektoys/cubegoodies/9b78/

Almost home

2007-10-26T22:35:25Z

Its so close now we have shut down and move all our equiptment. Now all that is left is to clean it and pack it to go. I should be home pretty soon oh i cant wait.
Tv's with tv channels, Fast internet with no download limits. Couches and chairs, Not having to put on shoes to go to the toilet, Having a kitchen, Not having to wair flip flops in the shower, SEX, Stores with stuff, Resteraunts, Good food, Civilian cloths, Being naked in my home, Not having a comunal shower, days off, drivning places instead of walking, laundry that doesnt take 3 days to get back, my computer desk, book stores, electronic stores, beer, SEX,
sooo many things that will be nice in the us.

Home?

2007-10-03T05:02:17Z

Its getting close to my time to leave. I will be back in the us by thanksgiving! How odd I say I am heading home but is it really home. I don't have a place to live my family isn't there. If I'm lucky I will be able to get on post housing pretty quick when I get back from Iraq it was far to expensive to live in town there.
My wife has been having troubles heading to the ER four times in the last month. I can't wait to be home with her she does much better with me around I am worried about her.

bla

2007-09-19T00:10:42Z

so my wife is having a hard time of late. She ended up in the hospital the other day her heart was acting up. She is getting stuff ready for my returning from Iraq. She will have to move back to arizona and is moving into a friends house for the time being. I'm a little worried that this is a bit too much for her 3 kids little to no help moving and working all at the same time. I wish i was back in the states to take care of her. Well i've called in all the help I can for now maby a good nights sleep will bring some ideas :(

quote

2007-09-08T06:01:22Z

The third-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking with the majority. The second-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking with the minority. The first-rate mind is only happy when it is thinking.
- AA Milne

R&R

2007-08-08T13:08:17Z

Well I arrived in Qatar just fine. I met some people I know here so I'm actualy having a good time so far. The three beer limit isn't bad for me got me pretty buzed wich made the ping pong all the better lol.

Time

2007-07-28T18:11:01Z

only:

114		days
2738		hours
164330		minutes
9859847		seconds

left at this moment until i should be heading home we will see any way.

Daydreams

2007-07-25T22:36:07Z

So how much day dreaming is bad. I have found that I spend way to much daydreaming. If I say too much you know that it is far too much It must me way too much. I wonder if this is simple boardum or something else?

I hate ppl

2007-07-24T04:37:15Z

I know why I don't post to LJ I don't like talking to people that has to be it. I don't know if I don't like them or what but I will avoid hanging out with people or talking to them or any personal interaction at all. I just don't like others I guess. I wonder why that is???

cranky

2007-07-22T04:35:04Z

12 hour shifts are long. 12 hour shifts with annoying stupid ppl are longer, 12 hour shifts doing stupid shit is longer still.
I am a little cranky after that then ppl being cranky make me more cranky.
must remember not to be rude there is never a reason to be rude... right?
but one good thing i get to sleep in today and no more 12 hour shift well for now any way.
I still have the stupid ppl though

asf;lka;vjna;f;iajf

2007-06-21T16:24:17Z

Permanent accounts for sale noooo why do i have to be in iraq why do I have to be poor why oh why cruel world. Hmmm maby if I whore myself out I can get the cash hmmm.

on my way

2007-05-06T00:40:24Z

w00t im on my way to the states just a stop in kuwait and then im heading home yayness i miss the us and my family and beer and in house shitters.

Extended

2007-04-17T14:06:35Z

As many of you have heard in the news the time spent in Iraq for the army has been extended. This has been put out for my unit that we will be doing and extra three months. Yes this sucks I will be getting extra money for the extra time but I really don't want it. I want to go home. Now would be nice also.

Combat Life Saver Training
I am currently in combat life saver training. I hate it we had to give and receive IV's today. I got poked twice got some fluid pumped under the skin and he got to try it on the instructor a few times before he got an IV ran.
I got my done smoothly on the first try yay for me. Boo for doing it again tomorrow in full battle rattle boo. I will not be looking forward to getting poked again while laying out in the sun with my armor vest and helmet on laying out in the sun. Boo for training as we fight. Boo for more needles poking me. Boo for seeing more of my blood.

Thought

2007-04-17T02:51:38Z

Each moment is our last moment.
Each breath is our last breath.
Have you ever thought about why you live.
Not the whole meaning of life thing...
just why do YOU live?
Why do you get up in the morning?
Why do you eat?
Why do you breath?
Why do you continue to live?
This my be a thought process brought about by my condition.
I have a poor memory now when you think ok a bad memory forgets tasks, phone numbers, names.
Well yes and everything else goes in the gray of nothingness also.
What was my mom like?
Where did I grow up?
What color was my daughters eyes?
When did I get married.
What was my honeymoon like?
All things fade away for me.
I effectively have no past.
So when I wake in the morning I have no reason to get up.
If I have no past then I have no drive for the future right?
Since I can't remember things I have trouble grasping complex concepts.
I will forget what I am doing before I reach enlightenment.
I go for simple things.
Easy to remember easy to understand.
Now if you are poor you suffer is that it.
Live to have more money to suffer less?
I have been rich and poor.
I'm pretty sure I was happier poor.
Any way if I don't remember good times how can I really suffer it just is existing right.
With nothing to compare your life to is it a good life or a bad one?
So I guess you need to live for the moment.
That is all I have this very moment right?
What if you were to die?
What would be put in the paper?
Who would cry?
How long and hard would they cry?
The next day would the world be different?
This time of year for me is the time of death.
You know what is funny about that is I am happier at this time than at the time of birth.
When I mourn the lost I may cry but I am pretty happy I guess.
At least happier than my birthday that much I can say for certain.
I have yet to find my reason to live the drive to go forward.
I go out of habit.
I love my family and do all I can for them with all that I am.
Yet I still have a hollow spot.
I can tell you who I am.
But I cannot tell you why I am.
Why are you?
( Pardon my rambling. )

Quote

2007-04-09T11:48:59Z

A family is a place where minds come in contact with one another. If these minds love one another the home will be as beautiful as a flower garden. But if these minds get out of harmony with one another it is like a storm that plays havoc with the garden. - Buddha...

My Disfunctions

2007-04-04T16:32:04Z

Well with all this time without the family I have been able to learn a lot about myself. I have friends but I don't talk to any one I have family but I don't talk to any one. I know now that is is how I was raised. My mother and I never talked and she didn't talk to people or family for the most part. So now I simply feel uncomfortable initiating conversation with any one no matter how well I know them. My Brother (I say this because I lived with his family for many years) Is one of the closest people I have and I haven't talked to him in forever.

WOOHOO!!

2007-04-04T16:27:45Z

Its getting close to my R&R time!! I will get to go to Washington and hug my wife and kids for the first time in eight months. Yay for hugs and kids and internet that doesn't give you a weekly download limit and beer and vodka and sex and of course in door plumbing to be able to take a shit without having to walk around outside is going to be nice.
So today is another day like yesterday and the day before I come to work watch movies play games call in reports and fuel generators. The shifts are 12 hours now and that is tiering just because it kills all time away from work. I leave do PT then sleep and come back to work.
I have so much anime now I wish my dvd burner was working so I could get it on disk and grab some more fucking laptop is a piece of shit. Fuck alienware and their fucked up shit. Damn thing doesn't turn on when you want it to will all the sudden be off when it was running have strange discolored spots in the screen and my dvd burner has coasters 3/4 of the disks I have tried to burn. I want to have Leah send it off to alienware to get fixed but that would put me out of a laptop I don't know if I could stand being without movies for that long I have so much anime to watch I need to get it done LOL. If I can get a cheap one to use until I get my POS back then I will send that fucker off.

BOO!!

2007-04-04T16:14:28Z

Damn LJ paid account expired! This free LJ is slow as shit how do you people stand it. If I had a card with me in Iraq I would pay for another year.